This time I will talk about the guys in my life that every woman as she removed 60% of energy and thought throughout his life.
I'm pretty tired of just focus my thoughts on these issues, because in the end, absolutely nothing is under control over our decisions and will, quite contrary to what might appear when they say that women are the ones who dominate these issues.
some time, I noticed a pattern in my behavior: I'm a hunter. I like challenges, I like to get, I like to feel the sweetness of success in general in my life. Yes, I think I am a tireless fighter who occasionally cries when he feels he has given all he can, but always gives a little more when there's nothing more to give.
not need no man, but one whom I need. Complex sentence defines my current state, causing pains and joys, paradox of life.
I think for 2 years or so, I have learned to rationalize my feelings very well to a person of the opposite sex. Long ago that I am not crying for someone, to feel rejection or even, I feel excited by what they call "love".
And that is precisely my concern: I thought I did not feel.
Recently I thought I could look for on someone who really appealed to me, but also, and as is common, usually put my eyes on the person who least should. The problem is that I was interested in someone equally or more rational than me, with the coldest heart and feel more afraid than I could ever imagine, but I stole the dream that made me feel anxious about him. Hunter I am, I decided to look and try to win, but it was a difficult barrier that only left me wondering what the hell am I doing?
I have done much harm, have made me doubt how valuable I am, made me think that loving relationships are utopian, and I even think it's okay to be with people while I make you happy, when you really want is someone to walk with me and the same thing I'd give to him.
Yes, I think I'm still a woman who falls in love easily, that he forgets himself, forgiving and dreams, but has much fear of being hurt again the way they did years ago.
Fear is a barrier that has cost me much to overcome and not yet completely demolished. Made me realize that the wounds are closed but not disappear and they will always have an effect on our appearance, the way we live and share with others.
When I met this man, I knew I was different, it was a difficult person, it was incomprehensible and hard, maybe one of my biggest challenges. I started my work as a strong woman showing me that just looking for fun, not romantically involved and who is able to ignore it at any time. The reality is that not me. The reality is that it hurts me to hurt me and I ignore the hurtful words that I read daily. It hurts to think that I do not mean anything in his life and it hurts to know that no matter if I leave tomorrow to exist, because for him to be or not your life as if it rains or the sun rises he continues his way, it hurts me that you've told me and the worst, it hurts me to continue looking for a sign of affection with the hard shell.
hurts me because I deceived into thinking that I would not engage, it hurts because it was my decision and I thought I could hold it, it hurts me because even I love him, not even someone who has marked my life, or is someone I have been involved, but it hurts more because it represents how vulnerable I am and how frustrating it is not getting what I intend and I see that would be great.
I did believe that I wanted, I believed him when he said, and even now I do not know if it's real, but it is a form of love that brings me nothing but bad feelings anxiety and pain as well say so, the suffering is because you have no one and no need to undergo this type of situation when there is enough suffering as to find out more.
No pain that lasts 100 years and it is time to regain my dignity. Finally and as much as it hurts, I will not tolerate humiliation, despise me not tolerate, much less be an option when there is nothing else to do.
Men, please, as you call for clarity when they dare to express their feelings to a woman, we also ask that you be honest with themselves and with women who love them. Absolutely no one who loves you deserve to be treated with contempt, with hostility on your part. Your problems are yours and nobody has to pay, especially when they are there to help. So the next time a woman is interested in you, I dream with you and to make and undo for you, please have the decency to be honest and be men.
For my part, I want a little more and show people that I really want is there, though I do everything to keep her by my side, I know that someday I will find out who makes me laugh, who make me grow, inspire and someone who inspires me, and all those corny things that one must feel when he loves ...
I hope at least give pause to someone about how unfair it is to hurt someone ... uncertainty hurts more than rejection, think about it.
