Saturday, June 26, 2010

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One does not discover new continents without accepting that it must lose sight of the shore for a long time.
André Gide, writer

Saturday, June 19, 2010

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Eternal Sunshine of the lonely mind ... Puede

Have You Ever Heard about Joel and Clementine's story? Well, Joel picture in my body ... I know that's right ...
They say no single person that has no friends. I've also heard that there is the poorest person is not himself. But I think (and check) that there be no worse evil than himself, or his friends, and hope that the past was still present and the future be extended.
few weeks ago (if not months ...) little by little I realized that loneliness is catching me very quickly. Just today, reading my posts from a year ago, I realize I had it all and my only concern was for my future career (especially the poverty of my paycheck haha). Since a few months ago, when I take a professional step that few can give in life, I began to understand what is sentrise alone what it means to miss and the sadness it causes.

WHEN MY FAVORITE MOVIE Became
MY LIFE I close
eyes and transport myself to an incredible place, where the night is as clear as the stars light up my face to contemplate as the cold begins to penetrate my body. Beside me, an incredible man that makes me forget the frozen floor and shared with me the happiness that can cause seeing the night sky, you see on each star a different time in our history perfect and draw a perfect future will not final.
I open my eyes and I realize that there is no starry sky, there are four blue walls that enclose me in front of me the display of what has become my best friend: my lap.

I'm so sad to realize that I am alone. Despite knowing that I with a lot of people I love and who loves me, no one to share my life the way I need now.

My friends are becoming more distant, either for work, school, because they are far from me, because we changed, or simply because life has separated us. And I think that much of this is my fault, plus the feeling that now dominates me think it was caused by me has been gradually luring antisocial mood.

real life I have not liked at all, I've realized, little by little joy has taken away my life, and has made me forget how amazing it is to wake up and see the sunrise as I saw after my bath. It has made me worry about sleeping at night than to live as they once did, he has taken away the desire to go out and have fun and in turn, has forced me to constantly worry about money, about the future, by age, by the celibacy, for fertility, health problems, from crime, by cancer ... and could continue the list of ills and concerns that surround my life (and any), the problem is I do not understand what has been what has been lost on me, but I'm not myself.


miss those days when you take me 3 tanks made me feel the belle of the ball, which was always the center of attraction. Strange go out and dance without worrying about criticism from others, dressed as I want and do not like. I miss being with my friends and excited that we invite a drink at the bar. I miss walking along the esplanade of the school and feel happy for stealing glances and encourage talks inteligentes.Extraño feel I have an amazing life ahead ....

write this as tears out of my eyes without that may contain. I feel somewhat lost in an abyss in which I do not know how I fell. I refused to believe it because according to me, had lost none of what I characterized. But now I realize that it is not. I'm not comfortable with me and therefore I'm not comfortable with others.

Understanding this, I no longer hard to understand why my friends have moved away from my life. Pawis am no longer the naive girl and always happy to say anything stupid and made everyone laugh, who never bothered to be with strangers, who made friends wherever he stood. He smiled at the people regardless of who they were. Now, I find it hard to feel completely comfortable with new people, I am much more desconfiaza, observant, reserved, hostile to some extent, and this ... only made me unhappy.
I go back and be that girl who had always been free, I feel that my friends are still there for fun or to support me when I'm down and lift my spirits in 5 minutes.

Every weekend I see that something happens happened. Whether anyone will remember me to include me in their plans or that I do not want to see anyone because generally, people who interested me (and usually is always some prospective partner), low mood to me subsoil.

Growing up is difficult, but I think I'm going the wrong way. I pay attention to seek the partner who admire me the stars, do not be afraid to give everything to me, but I am willing to give anything for him?

Right now, I'm at a point where I do not know do. I would sleep and wake up without memories that marked my life 2 years ago, when I had not known who introduced me to depression. I know that living in the past is to continue in error, but I think until this day I have not passed, my fear is still present and the proof is that I myself have built a wall in my loving friendly relations or to avoid getting hurt .
Just remember and realize that still affects me makes me want to isolate the world, but while I still dream of finding who show me that life is the starry sky that both dying to see .... and once I caught him.

This is the point where it became my favorite movie into the fabric of my life for 2 years. I have fought tirelessly to keep going, not losing my essence, to forget all the suffering they foolishly spent, and I think the only thing I did was fool making me believe I had forgotten instead of learning to live with it. I tried to clear my mind, my memories and in doing so I realized how incredible all had lived and I do not want to delete. This constant struggle has worn me unconscious for two years, only making me forget my essence ... what made me happy no matter the circumstances.
Today I decided to stop the process that has caused me much harm. I will face this without forgetting the past, without denying who I am and looking to stay in the future, recovering my friends, recovering all that he loved being.

deny our past is to destroy the structure of the future, so from now on, read this post to remember what it was and use it as a springboard to make me get to that starry sky I long to achieve both ... no matter who is alone when you reach it, the important thing is I'll be happy with myself.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

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'd rather be Hated for who I am Than loved for who I am not.
-Kurt Cobain (Via @ OliveYork )

Sunday, June 6, 2010

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A fool gets the easy fight for a man they want.
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