Sunday, February 7, 2010

Cold Sore At 8 Months Old

One for my boys

This time I will talk about the guys in my life that every woman as she removed 60% of energy and thought throughout his life.

I'm pretty tired of just focus my thoughts on these issues, because in the end, absolutely nothing is under control over our decisions and will, quite contrary to what might appear when they say that women are the ones who dominate these issues.

some time, I noticed a pattern in my behavior: I'm a hunter. I like challenges, I like to get, I like to feel the sweetness of success in general in my life. Yes, I think I am a tireless fighter who occasionally cries when he feels he has given all he can, but always gives a little more when there's nothing more to give.

not need no man, but one whom I need. Complex sentence defines my current state, causing pains and joys, paradox of life.

I think for 2 years or so, I have learned to rationalize my feelings very well to a person of the opposite sex. Long ago that I am not crying for someone, to feel rejection or even, I feel excited by what they call "love".

And that is precisely my concern: I thought I did not feel.

Recently I thought I could look for on someone who really appealed to me, but also, and as is common, usually put my eyes on the person who least should. The problem is that I was interested in someone equally or more rational than me, with the coldest heart and feel more afraid than I could ever imagine, but I stole the dream that made me feel anxious about him. Hunter I am, I decided to look and try to win, but it was a difficult barrier that only left me wondering what the hell am I doing?

I have done much harm, have made me doubt how valuable I am, made me think that loving relationships are utopian, and I even think it's okay to be with people while I make you happy, when you really want is someone to walk with me and the same thing I'd give to him.

Yes, I think I'm still a woman who falls in love easily, that he forgets himself, forgiving and dreams, but has much fear of being hurt again the way they did years ago.

Fear is a barrier that has cost me much to overcome and not yet completely demolished. Made me realize that the wounds are closed but not disappear and they will always have an effect on our appearance, the way we live and share with others.

When I met this man, I knew I was different, it was a difficult person, it was incomprehensible and hard, maybe one of my biggest challenges. I started my work as a strong woman showing me that just looking for fun, not romantically involved and who is able to ignore it at any time. The reality is that not me. The reality is that it hurts me to hurt me and I ignore the hurtful words that I read daily. It hurts to think that I do not mean anything in his life and it hurts to know that no matter if I leave tomorrow to exist, because for him to be or not your life as if it rains or the sun rises he continues his way, it hurts me that you've told me and the worst, it hurts me to continue looking for a sign of affection with the hard shell.

hurts me because I deceived into thinking that I would not engage, it hurts because it was my decision and I thought I could hold it, it hurts me because even I love him, not even someone who has marked my life, or is someone I have been involved, but it hurts more because it represents how vulnerable I am and how frustrating it is not getting what I intend and I see that would be great.

I did believe that I wanted, I believed him when he said, and even now I do not know if it's real, but it is a form of love that brings me nothing but bad feelings anxiety and pain as well say so, the suffering is because you have no one and no need to undergo this type of situation when there is enough suffering as to find out more.

No pain that lasts 100 years and it is time to regain my dignity. Finally and as much as it hurts, I will not tolerate humiliation, despise me not tolerate, much less be an option when there is nothing else to do.

Men, please, as you call for clarity when they dare to express their feelings to a woman, we also ask that you be honest with themselves and with women who love them. Absolutely no one who loves you deserve to be treated with contempt, with hostility on your part. Your problems are yours and nobody has to pay, especially when they are there to help. So the next time a woman is interested in you, I dream with you and to make and undo for you, please have the decency to be honest and be men.

For my part, I want a little more and show people that I really want is there, though I do everything to keep her by my side, I know that someday I will find out who makes me laugh, who make me grow, inspire and someone who inspires me, and all those corny things that one must feel when he loves ...

I hope at least give pause to someone about how unfair it is to hurt someone ... uncertainty hurts more than rejection, think about it.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Deathwatch Novel Studyactivities

CURRENT JOB: NEW TRADE AGREEMENT OF EMPLOYEES

was signed the new Convention for Trade Employees governed for the period November 1, 2009 until April 30, 2010.

no increases for the months of November and December last.

was extended until June 30 non-remunerative allowances established in 2008 and 2009 to be incorporated into the wages and pay contributions as of this month and next. This means that overtime and liquidated on vacation continue basic agreement established in 2008 (petty 1290).

All remuneration amounts not begin to be incorporated into basic remunerative basis on 1 July 2010 to 12 proportional shares of 8.33% until June 30, 2011, watching the match to employee contributions. Employers who wish to do so, may advance the incorporation.

From January establishing a new non-remunerative allocation of $ 100 .- which will be proportional to those who work in part-time.

The new allocation of $ 100 .- is offset by wage increases granted by companies from 1 September 2009.

compensatory allowance is granted a special and extraordinary non-remunerative, one-time $ 300 .-, to be settled by a separate item and shall be paid in 4 installments of $ 75 .- between January and April 2010, expiring with the last installment of any payment obligation that concept.

The additional length-scales down force will increase by 50% from the month of May 2010 and 50% non-cumulative from December 2010. Are calculated on the basic conventional and absorb additions to its audience by seniority. Future

proposal from the parties, consider the following topics: Patagonia, part-time and part-time contract, work on Sunday, student licenses, ATM regulatory framework for large stores, delivery mode and implementing this repositories.

registered business chambers which choose to discuss directly with the adequacy FAECYS salary, shall be given to the enforcement authority within 5 working days.

a committee was formed Interpretation and Conflict Resolution, acting at the request of each of the parties and to be issued within 60 days. At that time, no action may be taken direct action.

clauses were included to facilitate the financing debt with the Social Work, union dues and supplemental retirement fund.

Compensation Contributions VAT

At the request of corporate representation, both parties agree to manage the update compensation rates under the VAT Decree 814/01 on interim payments and contributions benefiting companies located in the provinces, giving priority to NEA and NOA regions.

Local authorities may agree with the unions stuck to their areas FAECYS on the enjoyment of annual leave, severance and vacation bonus pay, under certain conditions.

undertook FAECYS to give express consent to the request for granting the reconversion programs (Repro).

The Agreement was filed on the date the Labor Minister Carlos Tomada

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Black Hills Spruce Tree Growing Stages

Blindness

Backstab, heartbeat, tears drowning, empty feeling in stomach, pain, confusion, disbelief, anger, crying, shouting, tranquility ...

Facing what we do is up to every day, evil face that makes you someone who "want" is not something many like it ...

What to do when you know you lie, it hurts to accept it and decide to forgive but not forget?

What to do when you know you were seeing the face, playing with your feelings but do not take you away? What to do to get the value to hold back the urge to keep trusting, even though you know you should not?

And the worst is you work to bring peace party, not to be hostile and make room for the possibility that you might be wrong, but deep down you know that's not true, you're right that dominate what happened but I want to make the blind ...

I think the best thing to do is take all the feelings and stuff them in a bag and burn it. There is no reason to believe that all people are good and honest, there is no reason to think that who you made it once, do not do it again, and above all, someone who knows it is estimated and never would do something against.

In the end, life takes many turns, which eventually makes the parent pays and not filled with bad memories and bitterness.

quietly, reflect and move forward ... no more.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Quotes To Put On Koozies

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