What better way to write this post cathartic listening to Radiohead, yes ... and then read Camus, and surely then I fall asleep or I cut the veins.
I'm tired, my mind and my heart or the mother who controls the feelings and therefore can not be more stupid game and confusion.
I'm tired of having to be ME who step back, but not having the proposer, who shows all the interest and the worst, NOT EVEN WORTH IT ... Today
chatting with friends, I realized that my problem (in terms of romantic relationships) is that I feel I'm running from the train, so I settle for anything (literally anything) that crosses my face ... but, really I'm up to the mother of feeling.
For this reason, and because I put all my candles lit, I'll write absolutely anything I wanted to tell those "heartthrobs" (l by a change o) around me, and everyone, not becomes one ... I hope some time soon or know someone who values \u200b\u200bme for who I am and all that I as a human being ...
Well, talk about my hopes some other more boring post, now let's go to what we Truje, which is the "put in place" to this ball of pelafustanes (no order).
1. Specimen "I am the coolest and I do not give mothers what they feel"
DUDE, accept it. Do not I feel better mothers. I love being me and you die by being corny and cute kind that suddenly you come out, but not allow it, your facade can only hard to avoid feeling vulnerable. You think you are behaving badly towards me so you understand me, and I must accept it. And guess what, you did it in part so you do understand (or want to look) but I do not accept and not accept it because I see how you treat others and me is not so (being the least he deserves because I'm always there for you). Here the problem is that literally, not you, me ... And it is my problem because it gives too much, because you thought you be good to cut my veins for you, but not, I'm just as I am, not I treat you better be someone important in my life. It's just how I like to give myself to people I love and as well, for you surely is much more than you expect someone to do it for you. I know I have broken my heart, I have mother emotionally and I hope one day you realize you were going to take me something real and unbelievable, have rejected the charges and unconsciously fear that you will enjoy life fully, not with me or anyone, but go out with whom you leave as you say be with me. May you find ways to overcome it and see you in a few years living the way I would have liked to live with you, but today ... nothing I can do.
2. Specimen "Adonis I play the fool, but I'm playing with you":
This is the worst, because there is no way to say no. Damn my luck I met you 5 years ago and you're so incredibly handsome. I can not just ... You will have more air than a hurricane in the head, but have a personality that kills me and made me fall ... But hey, even that I do not regret much.
As you are very representative in my life by the way you came, you cope and gone, I can only tell you that even if I replace the face of an angel of playgirl I'll never go down with you, you'll never believe a word of "our future" because it was so perfect it was definitely too good to be true.
A you do not blame you, you did not do anything nonfatal ... well, nothing, just ran
3. Specimen "no matter how many years I have to go to do with you":
You're part of the worst segment of alpha males I've met in my life. Handsome, charismatic, intelligent, personality, economic stability, maturity ... "God what more could she want?!
Unbelievable, but all I could ask is that every time you invite me out, I do not insinuate that only wants to take me to bed "fun." Hard to believe, but this guy takes two years, TWO YEARS, trying everything to me, is alert to when I have a boyfriend, when short, when I go out with someone, when I'm vulnerable, when all. Follow each step of my life if I fall into the trap. It's so ... disgusting I do not know why I keep trying to access. We both know exactly what you want, but it's so ... fun to see how she suffers without success ... Really, believe that after two years, ever give in? It has everything you could ask, but please ... Play smarter ... Not for being a demigod have all purchased. At least not me. So good, in this specimen is probably more history ... The same plot, which will continue to write every time you try something with me.
4. Specimen "I am a good boy, do not get to my level"
I wonder what the head can take someone who weighs the socioeconomic status of the person leaving. Well, it happened to me. I tried for a child "good" that has had everything in life thanks to his family and obviously does not understand that not everyone can live in the Lomas de Chapultepec (or him), but shame on those who live outside the nice area of \u200b\u200bMexico City.
painted to discover what a brilliant mind, he became a: please quítenme this big lump up empty!
I can never arrogant attitudes, when judging from getting what my parents have so painstakingly built, coming from below and no one gave them anything. Never endure someone judge me by how much or little I have, because that to me, means an inner void that is not going to let anything good.
This materialism coupled with an ego malfundado, really make me cry Help! I would love to say: DUDE! the "handsome" (as he handsome) and the material is finished, I hope to you will last long because you are staying in the blue.
But hey, this dude honestly does not matter ... Just wanted to rescue her profile atypical specimen so materialistic behavior.
Well, the list could go on, but these are the most representative, which is to say ENOUGH! and which one should be careful not to fall tangled in his words.
I am very sorry to read this and realize the experiences that I had to go and I still do not find "that someone" I admire complete and fully ... I do not know if I ever do not know if I should seek or expect but we do know is I'm tired of being an option, a game, "while" a "to see what happens, it's over.
From now on all or nothing ... Who do we draw?
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